Prayer...Sacrament meeting talk Oct. 2009

4        Expressing Gratitude

We need to account for what our Father in Heaven has given us. One of the best ways to do this I have found is each time you receive a specific blessing that you have been in need of, as soon as you can kneel down and express your gratitude to your Father in Heaven, and tell Him about what you plan on doing with the blessings that you have received, this makes you much more likely to receive further blessings. In my first area in Kwa Magxaki My companion and myself prayed specifically to be led to a area where we would find someone who would receive us and be baptized, we felt prompted to go down Mqokolo street, and our prayers were answered as we soon later found Nceba and some of his friends. I will always remember that day, we knocked on his door he was there studying with some of his friends and he welcomed us right in, we taught what I thought was the best Restoration that had ever been taught, the spirit was so strong, immediately after we got out of his home we offered a prayer of gratitude, and it felt so good. From that time on every time we taught Nceba it was a awesome spiritual experience, a few months later Nceba was baptized and some of his friends soon followed his example. ( Nceba then did this and that … I got to go to Magxaki just a few weeks ago, and he will be leaving for mission this next year…) When we receive answers or blessings and then report on them. We will receive more.  I can relate this to when we would ask the members for people to teach, If we gained there trust and they gave us a referral, if we acted promptly with that referral and treated it like the gold that it was, and then told the member who gave us the referral about how our visit went with there friend and asked further for there help, they were always willing to give it.

The picture is special because Lena just had her "farewell" and is going to serve in Canada!  She is going to be a great missionary just like her brother.  This picture is one of the last we have of Bryce ...a few days before the accident.  He was wearing this coat that he got at DI...a girl's coat.  He loved it.  

How Can I Make Sure that My Prayers Reach Heaven?

Brad looks a little strange with his arm suspended.  This is his reception and he had a picture taken with his friends...his arm is where Bryce would have been in the picture.  I think he was probably there.  It is hard to see all these boys grow up but Bryce stays 21 years old to all of us. 
I was searching my Documents and found Bryce's original talk that he gave when he got home from South Africa.  I thought I would post it.  It is pretty darn nice.    I will start at the end and work my way to the beginning for reasons that will reveal themselves as I continue to post. 

5        How can I make sure that my prayer reaches Heaven?

In Enos verse 4.  Enos says that he did raise his voice high that it reached the heavens. When Dallin and I were younger and we gave a not so heart felt prayer, our mom would say something like “ well I don’t think that one made it past the ceiling. So to conclude my talk I would like to speak real briefly about some things that can help our prayers to be heard, and to help them to go past the ceiling up to Heaven. I was reading Nephi 2 v. 16 this week and I found a place where it explains why Nephi’s prayer was heard, why they reached Heaven. In verse 16 Nephi says “having great desires to know of the mysteries of God, wherefore, I did cry unto the Lord; and behold he did visit me..”  Great desire is what caused Nephi’s prayer to be answered as he received a visit from the Lord. How do we gain a great desire? What is a great desire? I think it would be safe to say that a great desire is anything that is on the same course as what God desires, or basically we could say anything that will help us and other to gain eternal life. Those types of things are great desires. We can also have our own desires of the world, that wont really help us to achieve what God’s desire is, we often come across our own desires of the world and get them mixed up with the things that we think are of the most importance and we often wonder why we receive no answer. In those times if we could stop and evaluated what it is we are praying for, we could soon come to the realization that we need to get our priorities straightened out. I know that God would be willing to help us do this. When the Lord visits Nephi He even tells him why he had Great Desires and why his pray was answered in verse 19 the Lord says “Blessed art thou, Nephi, because thou hast sought me diligently, with lowliness of heart.” Nephi was diligent therefore he was also obedient. He did what was right what he knew he was suppose to do, this made him eligible for the spirit and when we have the spirit we have great desires. This is how we make our prayers reach Heaven; our great desires carry it speedily all the way.  While I was serving in a place called George there was a single mother named Sonja who felt the spirit as she learned about the restoration, she acted on the instructions she received, she followed the spirit and gained great desires, she had been smoking heavily and drinking coffee and tea for over 20 years, but was able to stop in one day. Her great desires caused her to know that she could change through the Atonement of Jesus Christ; she came to know that her desires could be the same as Gods. Sonja was baptized; her family came hundreds of miles for Christmas and found out that she had joined the church. They promptly left after hearing that news, condemning her for what she has done. Her co workers gave her a hard time, and she received many other trails, but because of her great desires and the answers she received from prayers which led her to be able to experience the healing power and peace that comes from the Atonement, she was able to withstand those trails. She was able to make the 14 hour trip to Johannesburg to go do baptisms for the dead a few months later, and after membership in the church for a year she was able to go back and to take her endowments out. She has remained active and strong in the church despite the great adversary because her prayers reached heaven and came back to her with peace and direction.  I know there is so much power in prayer, I know that God knows us and loves us. He does answer our prayers. I know that the pray of the prophet Joseph Smith was answered, when he prayed to know which church was true. I know that God and Jesus Christ did appear to him, and he was soon later called to be a prophet of God. I know that we still have a prophet on the earth to this day, even Thomas Monson. I know that the Savior Jesus Christ lives. I know that He suffered for each and everyone one of us so we could be made clean to return and live with our Father again. In the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

Three Years Ago

This Sunday our friends are speaking in church. They are going to serve a mission in Mozambique. I thought they would probably be going to Africa! They are the parents of Bryce's best friend. We are going to miss them. I know they will be a great blessing to a country that Bryce loved. It just seems strange that it has been 3 years since Bryce came home. He was frustrated that he couldn't find a job but was excited to go snowboarding and kept wishing it would snow. He always wanted it to snow...even in the summer. It is pretty amazing that he was sent somewhere with no snow for two years. He survived...just barely. He found a part time job and worked hard to get in shape for snowboarding. I just wanted to mark this time because I always think about how nice it was to have him home and to see how much he learned and matured on his mission.

Africa Bound...we are sure going to miss them!

Just Arrived and Named....

Just a few hours old and making cute faces already!

Welcome to Winston Bryce.  It is so fun to have our grandchildren sharing names with Bryce.   At the beginning of the year, Spencer Kim was born.  Bryce was the only one in our family with the middle name of Kim.  Now Spencer shares it with him and his grandpa. 
I think Bryce would call Winston  " Little China Man".   Trust me...I know.   I also think Bryce is very familiar with this sweet new member of our family.  I hope he was nice to him....no chubby bunnys or jumping on his back. 

Speaking at ER Training

Outside the Emergency room of Utah Valley Hospital

A year ago I ( Bryce's mum) went with a friend to start tap lessons.  As the year progressed I learned that our teacher was a nurse in ER at Utah Valley hospital.  One day as I was visiting with her and some of the other ladies in our class, the thought came to me that she might have known about Bryce.  I told her about his accident and asked if she remembered anything about it.  She did and she was the nurse that admitted Bryce.  I was very  humbled to think out of all the people in Utah County that my tap teacher in Elk Ridge shared that significant day with me.  Later she asked me if it would be alright if Kim spoke to a group of doctors and nurses about our experience since he rode in the ambulance and was with Bryce the entire time from the accident to the end.  Time passed and just this  month, a date was set and on Monday I met Kim in the hospital conference room filled with talking, eating, noisy people while a presenter was up front explaining a service that his company provided.  Several people took turns speaking and each time they were given a sign that told them they had one minute left, etc.  Everyone was talking fast to get through their material.  I wondered if Kim was prepared to condense and be as fast with his recounting of Bryce's accident.  When his time came there was as a hush that settled and the hurry was gone.  I was surprised and relieved for Kim.  It was not the easiest of things to talk about and as he got to the part of the end of the doctors and nurses trying to do what they could for Bryce, the tears rolled down his cheeks.  I just sat there telling myself to smile.  I did okay but there were Kleenexes being handed up and down the rows and sniffles behind me.  Kim said that it was difficult to talk when he saw the tears in others eyes.  It is a sacred thing to talk about death to those that work hard to stop it.   He got no sign telling him to finish up and it was very quiet  but after he concluded there was a group of doctors and nurses that filed around him and expressed their sorrow and shared memories of that day.  We got to meet several that were there that day...people who said they recognized us and those that remembered easily the events of Bryce's accident.  That amazed me.  I can only say that from the depths of my heart and Kim's, we felt such a sense of gratitude for this group of people and all they tried to do for Bryce and for them remembering him and sharing their grief with us.  It was sacred to us.  Their faces were a blur that long ago day but their desires to help Bryce, to do all that they could and the way they treated our family will always stay with us.  That is one reason why Brooke, Dallin and McKay are having their picture taken moments after saying good bye to Bryce.  That is why I like this photo so much.  To the casual observer, it is a picture of our children somewhere but to us, on that day, it is a reminder of a loving Heavenly Father, a sacred experience, a special angel looking over us and the goal...our family can be forever. 

What Elder Utchdorf wrote

I was reading some of Bryce's letters the other day.  It was definitely a Bryce day.  I don't know what started it but it continued throughout the day and into the week.  I saw lots of Rav4's, heard a certain song that I heard once right after the accident that spoke directly to me, saw mothers that knew Bryce and had a son that had died...the list goes on.  I laugh and cry because it is like Bryce is poking me through heaven.  It is hard for me to explain unless you are a mother that has lost a child.  Then I have found you know exactly what I am talking about.  So here is the point.  I re-read a letter sent to me from who was then Elder Utchdorf.  I love this part:
Bryce is in the best place he can possibly be at this time.  Your beloved son continues to be involved in the work of the Lord and is safely in His hands. 
I know this is true and it makes me very happy.  It reminded me of being in Tokyo in the temple with Kim and Dallin.  This was the end of Dallin's mission.  As they were praying for the missionaries, I thought...oh--I have no more missionaries.  Then a voice as distinct and clear as can be came to my mind...no mom.  You will always have a missionary.
It doesn't get better than that!

Sweet Daffodils

Last night after FHE, Kim and I went for a walk.  Kim seemed to have a plan and when we came near the cemetery, he indicated he wanted to go see Bryce's grave.  I was anxious to get in a good walk but followed. 
Last Fast Meeting I had talked about the daffodils in our yard.  They were a sweet reminder to me of the resurrection.  My friend Tammy brought me bulbs the fall following Bryce's death.  I was excited to see them in the Spring and have enjoyed them the past two seasons. 
We were surprised to come to Bryce's headstone and see daffodils.  Kim lifted up the vase and there was a note on the plate under the vase.  I just stared.  I slowly walked away after that wondering who would put the flowers there.  My daffodils have long since faded in the yard.  I have found that it really means a lot to me when others talk about Bryce, tell me things that they remember, and are patient when I go on and on about something Bryce said or did.  I thought that time would heal this heart but I am beginning to think the hole is permanent.  That's okay because the Lord has filled that hole with sweet moments just like last night.